well the holiday was really bad! kyle went through a hard time hearing all thr fireworks so most nights we were dealing with that and since anyone here can buy them and have them everyone does it and kyle said hearing thoes made hime feel like he was back at the war! i felt really bad. i didnt know what to do and then his brother got arrested cause of something his dad did it is a long story so i had to bail him out it has been bad! and work has been a little nuts. i want to be a kid again my parents were right i should not have been in a hurry to grow up fast lol! things are going ok i kinda have not stuke to anything i have been a little nuts so i have been eating whatever i wanted but kyle and i talked and we are bothing to be eating less and eating good things. like good things as for our health! lol! we went to the hinder concert the othre night and there was this one lady there and she was pushing 400 no lie! and she didnt care she was where shorts and a tube top! yea and i dotn want to end up like that! it is hard really hard! but i hae started to not drink anymore and i have went back to making lunches and planning out dinners! so i will get back on track!!!

ok well i am at work and this morning it hit me !my pants are no longer hurting me they are no longer sitting up high my work pants i can almost get them off with out  undoing them! that is great! this weekend i have to buy a scale!! i just really dont want to ! lol! but i know that i have to! lastnight we had meat loaf i had one helping! tonight we are having i really dont know~! um i think it is this sandwhich that i am going to make! ok you have garlic bread and then you but the meat in that and get cheese and you have a sandwhich it is called something else but that is what we are having! got to love it! tonight kyle haas softball i dont know if i am going to go i have a lot to do at home i have to clean my kitchen cause it is looking bad! so that is whati will be doing! ok i have to go ill talk to you later!

ok so i bought a new car the other day! i love it but i will not let anyone eat in it or evan have food other then food shopping! so maybe this will help cause if i cant haev any food in my car then i cant stop to get fast food! lol! ok so i have been trying to eat more salad and drinking more water! it is working but i still feel like i should eat more i have to learn that i cant do that! i was talking to sarah over the weekend and she said that i look like i am looseing wieght ! i dont know i really cant tell i wish that i was. i want to loose all the weight! i have faced the fact that i will never be a size 0 i mean come on i am 5/9 i cant be 0! lol! it is all good! i just have to start getting myself out there! i really hope that i start looseing more and more! i wish that i did have to work so that i could spend all day working out and doing whatever! lol like on the shows yea they loose 23 pounds but they also work out like 8 hours a day! if i did that i would not get any sleep. how is everything going with deana???? i know you doing great you can do it!

well what happened at work ..... this week it was busy i was working alone and there was two people that live there that were at the pool and they started to fight! so they came in and started to fight with me! i was like what the hell! and working there i could not fight back it was so hard not do anything! then we had our big bosses in town cause they wanted to see our numbers and make sure that everything was going ok! so it was busy and every night i was working late and i just had no time! kyle and i were even saying since we started working we really have not seen eachother! lol but what are you going to do! i need to  work so we just have to do it and see eachother when ever we can! lol


today i cleaned the crap out of the house ! i realy needed to i just got done with my room! during the week i dont have time well it seems to clean or wash the clothes! i get up at 700 and get ready for work! i leave at 830 and work all day until 600 i get home around 630 and then i have to make dinner clean up after that then i sit down to watch a little tv and by 6830 im already in bed waiting to go to sleep! lol .. lets just say the sex life is um not really there cause we are both to tired lol! but we are making money! 

i made dinner i cooked steak and rice . it was really good! i have to start drinking a lot more water. i know that i need to. ok wel it is 10 and im tired! ok ill talk to you later .

ok well it has been really crazy. i have been setting up a surprise party for kyle! and it was lastnight! it went great kyle had no clue that i was giving him one! but it was really hard planning it! but i did it! 

so ok work is going good i have had a bad day the other day but things are going good again! 

the whole diet thing it going ok! i have been drinking though. so that is not a good thing cause that is not on the diet! lol! but we have been partying more and more! 

i have not really been eating junk food, i have been just eating good. my pants are feeling a little better! but i still want to loose a lot more! 

well now things are starting slow down! so i will be getting back to writing to writing on here everyday! i just had to get everything together for work and the party! but im back! ok so ill talk to you later!

sorry that i have not been on in a while! this week was not great it was long and really busy and kyle has been sick ! so we would get home from work take showers and eat something fast and then go to bed! and get up the next day and do it all over! so i am sorry! 

ok well i talked to sarah and she said that she is going to sit down with me and go over all the things that i need to eat like what she is doing with la weight watchers! so instead of paying a lot of money witch i kinda dont want to spend i cant get everything from her~! so as soon as i get things going with her ill let you guys know! 

today i am at work i dont work sundays cause we have a girl that works just sundays but for what ever reason she cant work today! so i am doing it! but it is all good i am only hea until 5 and then i get my birthday off! did i tell you that i am throwing kyle a surprise party! ? it is going to be on friday! he doesnt know about it and im hoping to keep it from him! ok well i guess that i should go and try to do something sundays are really slow and there is nothing to do!

hey everyone! so i have to first buy telling you that i leased my first house today! for a year! i was so happy! i was not suppose to be leaing i havnt evan been there a week but i know that if i want to be a player there that i have to learn fast and start leasing houses! and i did it! tomorrow i should have like 2 people come and talk to me! and then i am hoping that i they will sign with me! 
ok so today for lunch
i had a meal on the go lol i had a frozzen meal 
with water! 
and i had a banana! 
i didnt get to have any snacks i was showing homes all day! 
then kyle and his aunt too me out for dinner cause i got my first lease! we had super china buffet! lol! but i didnt have a lot to eat i have been getting full faster then i use to! thats a good thing i had to learn that once i feel full then i am! lol! and not to eat more then i should!  kk so i am going to head to bed i have another busy day tomorrow! love ya!

this is my dinners for the week! 

flanks steak! this is my fav! it is so good! 
lite soy sauce
balsamic vinegar
olive oil
garlic
ground ginger
black pepper
and the flan steak let that sit for about 30 min if longer i try to! then put it in the oven at 450 and cook until done! it is so good! kyle loves this one and it is diet food lol! remember small portions though! lol

chicken broccoli and zitit! start with garlic and oil. then get the chicken which is cut up in chuncks . then let that cook all the way through. then take the broccoli and mix it in with the chicken! cook the ziti and mix it all together!  it is good! 

next one is chicken and rice and roasted potatoes! 
i cook the chicken with spices! i put garlic and chicken seasoning! it is really good then i takethe potatoes and cut them up and take dried rose mary and some olive oil and put it all over the potatoes! then spread them out on a pan and stick in the oven for about 40 min! then vegies i take open the can but them in a bowl and put sone pepper on them and cook! that is a good easy fast dinner! lol

ok so thats three dinners so far ! i have to look and see what other things that i want and have the time to make! ok getting to lunches! lol! 


well i have my turkey sandwhiches! 
wheat bread 
turkey meat
and a little bite of mustard 
i have either apple slices or some bananas or grapes! 

next thing i have is chicken caesar wrap. 
get chicken and put caesar dressing fat free all over it! then take some lettuce put dressing on that then get a wrap and wrap them all up together! and there is your lunch! 

then i take cold cooked pasta like ziti or something close to that! then if you but a little bit of fat free italian dressing on it it is really good and you can have that with pita bread that is good i like it! lol! 

ok well there are some of my dinners and lunches for right now! ill have more up during the wekk! hope that this helps with anthing! let me know and ill look for some more to tell you! i have to think of the the things that i cook lol! love ya

ok so the last 2 days have been nuts! work has been so busy! it is a lot of work i have to even take things home cause i either need to learn them or i didnt finish them! crazy! so i have been tired and i just have not been able to get on! 

so i have been eating a lot of chicken and veges! 
i finally went food shopping! i got flank steak for dinner one night and i got chicken i did get tacos but this is my thought! if you only have 2 that is not 3 or 4 so i think that it is ok to have something like that once in awhile! then i got chicken to make one night! and i got veges and fruit! 
and im drinking a lot of water! so things i think are going better! 

i want to start going to the pool and swimming and doing that ! i have been walking a lot at work! walking to all the townhouses and apartments! i work at a big place and i try to walk to most places! and i cant walk slow so it is more like speed walking lol cause i have to many other things to do then slow walk! lol! you know how it is! ok well that is it for now tomorrow i will be on to write some more! going to the flea market tomorrow to see what i can get and then it is washing clothes and cleaning all day! so ill tlak to you tomorrow ! love ya

um i dont know if im doing something wrong on this or if im doing something wrong! cause i posted an entry lastnight but it is not on there today! so i dont know! but this is for today! 

it was nuts at work! i showed my first townhouse today maybe they will move in and that will be my first on i was so scared! lol! but i did it and it was ok!  i have been running around all over the place for work! i think that it is kinda good cause i was just sitting at home with my last job this one i get to go out and talk to others and do some real work and get me thinking more ! lol! 

so what i ate today! i drank a lot of water at work! 
breakfast i didnt get to eat anything! i was kinda fall behind this morning!
snack 
nothing
water!
lunch turkey shandwhich water
snacki did eat some apples slics
dinner we ate late cause kyle had sofball! so we had some pasta! 

not great but i am drinking drinking more water! 
 ok tomorrow i get out of work around 1 m coming home and making a list of food that i want to get for dinners and lunches! so ill write it all down!  i am beat i feel like i have been working for 100 years lol im not use to it ! lol love ya!